雙子 一之1

一、
如果你問我，在這個世界上，只能存活兩個人，除了自己之外，我希望那個人是誰，我會毫不考慮地回答你，亮，我的雙胞胎弟弟。
在這個世界上，和我血緣最相近的一個人。從還沒誕生到這個世界上開始，在母親溫暖的子宮內，和我相互依偎，比任何人都要靠近的距離，世界上最近的距離。
不會有人比他更瞭解我，就好像不會有人比我更瞭解他，一個笑，一個皺眉，一個眼神。
直到現在，我仍然覺得他就在我身邊，等著我回頭，叫我一聲，哥。

陽光自落地窗灑進屋內，暖黃色的裝潢讓人有放鬆的感覺，播放著的輕音樂讓人心情舒暢。我將整個身子縮在白色的沙發裡，閉著眼睛感受後方牆上掛鐘一秒一秒的晃動，隔壁的女孩一直傳來喀喀喀的聲音，想起她手上被咬的短短的指甲，我大概可以猜出她在做什麼。
對面坐著的男孩，臉色蒼白的好像沒曬過太陽，嘴上不停地嘟囔著一萬一千七百三十七，一萬一千七百三十八。
除了喀喀喀聲讓人有點不舒服以外，室內的因為配上舒適的溫度舒服的都快要讓人睡著了，然後我聽到曉卉姊叫我的聲音。
「小光，到你了喔。」就如同往常一般，她露出淺淺的微笑。
我很喜歡曉卉姊，應該說到這裡的人都喜歡曉卉姊。她總是帶著淺淺的微笑，臉頰上的酒窩看了就覺得很可愛，每次她都會摸摸我的頭，說：「小光好乖。」雖然，我早已過了需要人摸我的頭說好乖的年紀。
我拉了拉衣服，想讓自己看起來有精神一點，跟著曉卉姊走進了會談室。
每次到會談室我都會感到緊張，然後就是熟悉的胃痛，儘管從那天開始，我已經來過這裡不下十次。
而實際上其實也沒有什麼好緊張的，林醫生是個很好的人，也只有這麼溫柔的人才會和曉卉姊配成一對，我想。但我還是會感到緊張，大概是我不習慣和別人報告發生在自己身上的一切的關係吧。
林醫生總是帶著一副沒有度數的平光眼鏡，問他為什麼，他只說這樣看起來比較有安全感，大家比較不會怕他。其實根本就不需要那副眼鏡，見過林醫生的人，像自己的這一類人，就會對林醫生感到信任的。
「怎麼樣，小光，最近過得如何？」林醫生笑著，是那種會讓人覺得好像有春風吹過的笑容，暖暖的。
我努力學著笑，好像從某一天開始，我就忘記了怎麼笑起來像林醫生一樣好看。「還不錯。」
「學校開學了嗎？」林醫生幫我倒了一杯可可，我覺得林醫生最□害的地方是他每次和我們談話都沒有做筆記，可是我們發生了什麼事，抱怨過什麼，他卻記得一清二楚。
我點了點頭。之前因為車禍休養了半年，所以現在要重讀一年，不過畢竟是之前就唸過的東西，讀起來不會太吃力，只是要認識新同學對我這麼孤僻的人來講，就有點麻煩了。
好像有讀心術一樣，林醫生笑了笑，「課業對你來說應該不是問題，有沒有交到新的朋友？」
「沒有，大家年紀比我小，在醫院休息了半年我好像和大家都有了代溝。」
事實上我就算沒有在醫院待半年，和同學的相處也還是會有問題。
我的個性太過孤僻，從小養成的性子讓我很難打入同學們的小圈子裡，不像亮，亮只要一笑，就可以很輕易地融入新環境。
「別著急，你本來就比一般人安靜一點，只要照著你自己的步調，總會交到朋友的。」
是這樣子的嗎？雖然不太相信，我還是點了點頭，「我知道。」
不知道為什麼，林醫生嘆了一口氣，「小光，最近家裡如何？」
「……老樣子。林醫生，父親……真的當作亮不存在一樣。我好怕，為什麼他們要吵架？」出院以後，父親就再也沒有提過亮，現在想想，我甚至懷念起他以前和亮三不五時互相對罵的時候，至少，亮在家裡，不是透明的隱形人。
亮明明在外面和誰都可以相處得很好，為什麼就只和父親不對盤？雖然，父親的確是嚴格了一點……
問母親，母親卻只是用著哀傷的眼神看著自己，然後裝作若無其事地轉身，可是我知道，母親在掉淚。
林醫生只是看著我，像是要說什麼似的，最後，卻只是告訴我，「小光，有些事情，也許遺忘了會比較好。雖然，你想知道到底發生了什麼事，可是我不是那個有權利告訴你的人。」
林醫生這麼說，就是真的發生了什麼事對吧？遺忘，我真的忘記了什麼了嗎？
這種大家都知道，只有自己被瞞在鼓裡的感覺真的很不好，我知道林醫生不會告訴我發生了什麼事，但是我會憑自己的力量找出來。「我知道了，可是我也有知道真相的權利，如果我真的忘記了什麼，我會自己想起來。」
林醫生好像有點無可奈何的看著我，然後他苦笑了一下，摸了摸我的頭，像是溫柔的哥哥一樣，說：「你去做吧，小光，只是你一定要記得，不管怎麼樣，還有我，和曉卉陪著你。」
雖然不知道為什麼他要這麼說，我還是下意識地點了點頭，林醫生，好像什麼都知道，但是，卻什麼都不告訴我。
之後我們又□聊了一下子，通常都是林醫生問，我答，雖然我的答案常常短到離譜，他總是可以從我的回答當中瞭解我的感覺，真的是很□害啊林醫生。
就像是往常一樣，在我們喝完手上的那杯□咖啡和熱可可之後，我們約好了下次見面的時間。□咖啡這種苦到不是人類可以喝下肚的東西，林醫生一天可以喝個四五杯，他總是說：「這可以讓我清醒一點。」雖然我覺得他已經夠清醒了。
一切，真的就和我每次來沒有什麼不一樣，除了在我把門完全關上前，不小心聽到林醫生的那句話以外。
「雖然什麼都忘記了，個性卻完全沒有變呢，還是這麼的固執啊，小……」
最後那個字，太小聲了我聽不清楚。應該是在說我吧。
但是，在車禍以前，我並不認識林醫生啊。越來越覺得，林醫生身上藏著的謎團，比我想像中的還要大。
不過沒關係，我會自己找到謎底的。



嗯，我真認真。（屁）

幫我看看可不可以，有沒有錯的地方

Do not abandon your lovely pet

There is a little boy named Nick. He wants to have a pet very much since his friend bought a dog. On his birthday his mother takes him to a pet store. There are a lot of animals at that pet store, such as dogs, rabbits, and cats. There is a lovely white dog among the animals. When Nick sees it, he says instantly, "That dog is so cute! I want to take it home."
In the beginning, Nick likes his dog very much. He calls the dog Lucky. When Nick gets home after school, he gives Lucky a hug first and then feeds it. He plays ball with Lucky everyday. He even sleeps with Lucky. He always says, "Lucky is my best friend." Lucky Likes Nick, too. Everyday it sits at the door, waiting for Nick.
But when time goes by, Nick's mother gives him a new birthday present -- a newest video game. Nick loves it! He doesn't like Lucky so much like before. When his mother asks him to feed Lucky, "Mom, I'm playing video game. I'll feed Lucky later," he said. When Lucky sits beside him waving its tail, Nick is still playing his video game. He doesn't play games with Lucky anymore.
At last, Nick takes Lucky to a park and never takes it home. He abandons Lucky there. Lucky was once a lovely, clean white dog but now becomes a dirty stray dog. It has to find food in the trash can everyday, otherwise it will starve to death. Poor Lucky. Before we buy a pet, we should make sure that we will take care of them. We shouldn't buy a pet and abandon it when we don't like it. Pets always loves their master, so at the same time, we have responsibility for them. We should love our pets and take good care of them.



Excercise more, healthier and happier

Jane and Mike are brother and sisiter. They both don't like excercise. Jane likes play computer very much. She always sits at the desk and plays computer all day long. When her father asks her to rest, she says"Five more minutes!" But thirty minutes later, she is still sits at the desk. Mike, a thin boy, likes to eat snacks and watch TV. When Jane is playing computer, Mike is sitting at the sofa, watching his favorite cartoon.
Day after day, Jane can't see things clearly. She can only see things in a very close distance, so she wears glasses. At the same time, Mike become very fat. Everytime he climbs the stairs, he feels tired and almost faint. But they still don't do any change. Jane plays computer everyday, and Mike still watch TV everyday after school.
One day, their parents take them to the hospital. The doctor says,"Mike is overweight, and this is very bad to his health.What does he do everyday?" When he knows that Mike watches TV everyday and never do excercise, he is very astonished. The other side, Jane's doctor asks Jane's parents,"Did she follow my advice? I ask her not to play computer so often and she must give her eyes rest." The doctors both think Jane and Mike are very unhealthy. They say,"If Jane and Mike don't change their life style, Mike would be heavier and Jane's sight would be worse."
Jane and Mike's parents now know the situation is very bad. They start to change Jane and Mike's life style. They take Jane and Mike out on weekend. In the beginning, Jane and Mike hates to excercise. But after several times, they feel that they are healthier. Jane doesn't need to wear glasses when she is in the mountain. Mike doesn't feel tired and faint anymore. They all like these changes. Now they go out to exercise almost everyday, such as running, biking, and swimming. They become more and more healthier, and they are happier than before.



Brush your teeth everyday, keeps the decayed tooth away

There is a little boy, his name is Alan. Alan loves to eat desserts. Everyday he eats a lot of desserts, including ice creams, chocolate cakes, and sweet juice. His mother always asks him to brush his teeth,"Alan, if you don't brush your teeth after you eat desserts, your tooth would be decayed," his mother says. However, Alan never listens to his mother. He still eats those desserts everyday and never brush his teeth after he eats them.
One day, Alan is eating his favorite dessert, a piece of chocolate cake. When he put the cake in his mouth, his teeth ached so much that he even can't take another bite of the cake. He feels very sad because he can't eat his favorite desserts. "I want to eat chocolate cake and ice cream," he thought. But he just can't eat any dessert because his teeth ached very much.
Three days later, Alan goes to the dentist, even though he is afraid of the dentist very much. The dentist asks Alan to open his mouth and says,"You have lots of decayed teeth, didn't you brush you teeth?" Alan is very embarassed. The dentist uses some medical equipment to extract Alan's decayed teeth. The sound is very horrible. The dentist also gives him some medicine and ask him to brush his teeth everyday.
After that horrible experience, Alan now brushes his teeth everyday. He also brushes his teeth after he eats desserts. Though Alan still loves to eat desserts, he has beautiful,clean and health teeth now. He goes to the dentist once half year. The dentist praises his teeth and says,"your teeth are very health." Alan now can eat desserts happily, oh, and brush his teeth happily.




寫給小鬼的說故事稿= =

未定 楔子

尹月牙一直認為隔壁沒有住人。
事實上，整棟大樓幾乎都以為3-B座的套房裡沒有住人。
從來沒看過有人進出那間套房，甚至沒看過那間套房裡開過燈。
所以尹月牙搬到這裡一年，一直認為隔壁沒有住人。
她拎著一大袋剛從巷口那家價錢很高昂的漫畫出租店裡借回的小說，另一手還提著熱騰騰的滷味，嘴裡哼著時下流行的芭樂歌，開心地計畫著難得的休假，她在家裡要多腐爛就可以多腐爛，要多米蟲就給他多米蟲。
嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚～～～
她從口袋裡拿出鑰匙準備開門。
嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚～～～～～
什麼鬼聲音？
嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚～～～～～～
不要往後看不要往後看不要往後看，她一邊對自己喃喃唸著，一邊又抵不過自己的好奇心，偷偷用了眼角往後一瞄。
沒有什麼鬼東西，沒有突然從脖子上面跑出來的手，也沒有全身灰白的小朋友，只有一扇被打開的門。
一扇被打開的門。
隔壁沒有住人。
如果不是鬼，那是闖空門吧？
她又偷偷地看了一眼那扇打開的門，手緊張地握緊手上的滷味及小說，慢慢地走進沒有住人的三樓B座。
「有人在嗎？」聲音大概比蚊子大一點點。
還是沒有人應聲，只有那嗚嗚嗚嗚的鬼哭聲。
雞皮疙瘩此時全跑了出來，她連忙轉身，心想著還是回家為妙。
然後，一隻冰涼的不像是活人的手，抓住了她的腳踝。
「鬼啊——！」

がんばっていきましょう

努力
接下來只能努力了
不管怎麼樣都是自己選擇的路，所以不能選擇回頭或放棄
只有一直往前走這個選擇而已

不過今天真的好累喔><
果然年紀大了嗎？
怎麼才走路一下下我就覺得好累orz

我要為未來而努力，為了我可愛的小套房和還清債務
為了將來中年的時候可以退休開一間漫畫出租店過米蟲生活
我要努力啦哈哈哈哈哈（白癡）

我想

我不想要把開關打開。

他媽的幹！

我他媽的真的很生氣
我氣那個男生莫名其妙
什麼叫做雖然知道這個時間講很不恰當但以後講會更痛
他媽的他在你說分手的後天要考試
你他媽的要他怎麼去考試

我氣妹妹活像一副快死掉的樣子
對我沒談過戀愛
但是我死也不要因為失戀就變成這個樣子
分手就分手有這麼嚴重嗎？
太陽還是每天出現日子還是要過
是不是他分手你就不要吃不要睡不要去考試把其他人對你的關心當屁

不能去陪考就算了
分手都分手了還在難過個什麼勁
就一輩子都不要再來往了啊
打死我都不相信什麼只是累了的屁話啦更

他媽的
只是因為他說不知道明天能不能去陪考
坐在那邊跟死人一樣
都已經這樣了還能怎樣
就當作沒有這個人就好了啊幹

他媽的我真的火大到想翻掉全世界的桌子
然後呼那個男的一巴掌呼過去再呼回來

幹！